NINETEEN

It Is 22nd Of March Today. I Woke Up 11am, Yeah That's Kinda Late Coz I Slept Late ^^. I Was With A, We Kept Our Eyes Wide Open, Stayed Late Up To 1am. We Talked About A Lot Of Stuffs Which Is The Usual Thing We Do. I Like The Fact That We Are So Open About Everthing That We End Up Opening About Things We Want To Clarify, Which We Don't Usually Bother Asking To Each Other For We Are So Busy For Some Reason. (giggles) We've Been Together For 4 Long Months That's Over A Hundred Days. Hundred Days Of Not Pure Happiness But I Can Say It Is FUN Being With Him. I'm Learning A Lot, From Words To Attitudes. (hey A, i'll be better, you just wait. we'll be great. i love you. ^^)

And It's Funny When It Comes To Topics Like Break Ups We're Just Laughing It Off. I Don't Know. Maybe That's How Much We Are Sure About Ourselves. I Feel So Light. Ooh This Is So Amazing. I Know Things Will Be GREAT. JUST WAIT AND SEE :) 

(singing)

Last Score Of 2009

I Dont Have Any Good Concept For This Entry.

So I'll Just Greet Everyone Instead.

Happy New Year! ^^

"It Is Never Too Late To Be What You Might Have Been."

Have A Great Year Ahead. 

2010

HourGlass

There Are Times I Rethink And Think A Lot. On Those Times, I See Myself, Not Only Myself But Also The Changes Happening Within Me. I Started Noticing Things Began To Turn Up-Side-Down, Before I Was So Impatient On Things, Very Short-Tempered Or Easily Angered, Before I Want Things Done My Way, Before I Always Want To Get What I Want, Before... Let's Just Say I Was So Immature. I Was Strong, I Believed I Am Strong, I Don't Fear Losing Someone Nor Leaving Them Behind In An Instant. I Am Not Scared Of Them Hating Me, Getting Mad At Me, Feeling Irritated And Annoyed With Me. Suddenly, Things Had Changed A Lot, Not Only Things But Also -- Me. Now, I Am Starting To Be Patient On Things, [But Waiting, No I Don't Think So, Maybe That's One Thing That Still Haven't Changed In Me], I Am Starting To Control My Temper, I Don't Actually See Myself Controlling It, My Emotions Itself Are The Ones Already Changing Which Is Kinda Weird, For Example: Instead Of Getting Mad Opposite Happens I Get Sad, Really Really Sad Which Results To Tears And Over-Thinking About Things. The Strong Me Suddenly Turned Out To Be Weak Now. Now, I Am So Scared Of Losing What I Have Or Whom I'm With. With Aion, I Get Sad And I Tend To Cry Whenever He Tells Me Or I Can See And Feel That He's Mad At Me, Irritated, Annoyed, I Am Scared Of Him Hating Me, I Am Scared Thinking That I'll Be Losing Him. The Thought Of Me Leaving Him Hasn't Entered My Mind Yet, And I Don't Even See It Entering My Mind Again. Things Really Turned Up-Side-Down, Maybe Before T'was My Time To Act Like That. But Know My Time Already Lapsed, The Hour Glass Has Turned, For New Things To Happen, Time For New Ways, And Time For The New ME. 

"What's Yours Is Yours For A Reason.." - NYX

Glad To Have "A".

Rethinking The Cases

For The 6th Time. I Entered A Relationship.

People Considered Me As A "Helpless Romantic" 

For The Reason That They Believe 

Everytime I Am In A Commitment,

I Am Always Considering That, THAT "Relationship" Is "The One".

Reason Why I Am Giving It My All.

Reason Why I'd Give Everything 

Just To Make That Relationship Last.

I Don't Care What Other People Think About Me,

Though Sometimes I Realized They Might Be Right After All.

I Just Can't Understand Why, Why Am I Always Ending Up Crying.

Why Am I Always Ending Up Thinking, Rationalizing Things.

Why Am I Always Ending Up Like This.

I.AM.CONFUSED.AND.I.PITY.MYSELF.

November 6, 2009 With Aion, 

I Am Observing How Far We Could Go.

I Am Avoiding The Wrong Things That I Did Before.

Let's See. We'll See. 

[DOWN] -_-

Before This Day Ends

6th Of December 2009 
First Six, First Month

Again, A Very Great Day,
Though Near Farewells Tears Began To Exit Out My Eyes Again.
Two Things.
I Am Happy.
And At The Same Time I Felt Fear.

I Was Really Happy, Yet Again Negativity Screwed Up.
Fear Of Again Losing Another Chance.
Chance To Live Life With Someone Whom I Really Love.
Fear Of Losing The True Reason Of Happiness.
Fear Of Another Mistake. Fear That Those Fears Will Happen.
But I Am Trying To Conquer It All Up.
Trying To Win It All With Optimism.
Trying To Win It All By Believing.

After Of What He Said,
Fear Was Lost. Hopefully It Won't Come Back.
I'll Be Positive.

This Time WE Are Sure.
This Time WE Are Ready.
We'll Both Make This Permanent.
We'll Both Make This Possible.

Definitely THIS Is LOVE.

Hopefully HE's The Last

Hopefully THIS Will Last.

_AioNyx6_

Shortcuts Of Life

Having Shortcuts Makes Everything In Life Very Easy.
If There's Something You Want To Change.
Just Press Alt + E. Viola! Changes Done.
If Only Life's That Magical, (sigh)
We Would Use Shortcuts That Are Used In Keyboards Almost ANYTIME!
Life Would Be So Great. It'll Be FUN.
It Hurts When It Sounds So Right But Suddenly You'll Notice Things Are Not Going Fine.
If I Could Just Use My Keyboard.
Ctrl + Z So I Can Undo All Of My Mistakes.
Ctrl + Y So I Can Redo Everything That Seemed Right All Along.
Type In The Correct Letters Until It Ends Up GREAT.
Ctrl + S So I Can Save And Stop At The Point Where Everything's FIXED.
No Mistakes. EASY.
But Before You Do That Make Sure Your KEY-Boards Plugged In! Hahahaha

We Are CHAINED

We Are Chained.

Whatever Pops To Your Mind.
Same Things Pop Right Into This Head Of Mine.
Whatever Ideas You Have.
Same Ideas In My Head Are Being Carved.
Whatever Emotion You Feel.
Sure I'll Be Affected. My Heart's Not A Steel.
Whatever You Want To Do.
You Can Ask Me To Do It With You.
Whatever You Want To Say.
GOOD Or BAD,
Say Everything You Want To Say,
My Ears Are Lent To You Anyway.

See We Are Chained.
You Me - Me You.
Its Just Like Looking Into A Mirror With Your Reflection.

BUT If That Chain Breaks,
Sure It'll Bring Ache.
But Whatever Happens
I Know That Chain Will Link Again.

Tell Me, Do You Feel The Same?

Or You Think Now B1's Getting Insane?

B2, Are You Thinking What I'm Thinking? :)

If YES, Definitely We're CHAINED :))

Trivia:

Did You Know That B1 And B2 Are Computer Students? :))